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"Everything
you want, you may have," the enormous, glowing Being said to
her as she sat in her bed. She gazed at the stars that peeked through
the crack in her curtains.
"Everything?"
she echoed, not really paying attention to the Being that had always
been there, but no one except herself had been able to see.
"Whatever
your heart desires is what you're supposed to have," it continued.
She
turned to face it. "I know what you are," the girl said.
"You aren't blue and shaggy, but you're my imaginary playmate,
aren't you."
The
Being laughed. "No, I'm more real than anything in your life."
"Oh,"
she replied, half disappointed. "But, my parents don't have
one of you. Does that mean you are going to disappear when I grow
up?"
"No.
I'll always be there, no matter what," the Being said firmly.
"You can always count on me."
"OK."
She closed her eyes, falling asleep, never afraid of the dark with
the Being to light up the room.
Years
later she still spoke to the Being. It hadn't left , and she had
grown to trust it.
"Did
you know there's such a thing called boys? And that I'm supposed
to marry one one day?"
The
Being laughed. "Of course. Haven't you watched your parents?
They were a girl and a boy once, too."
"No!
Not them." She wrinkled her nose. The idea that her parents
could have at one time been so small shocked her.
"Of
course they were. Somewhere out there are boys you will meet and
fall in love with."
"More
than one?" She shook her head. "But that's not right.
There's only supposed to be one. And he's called Prince Charming."
"Wait,
you'll see," the Being replied.
The
girl didn't believe him. In all the fairy tales she had heard, there
was only one Prince Charming.
Many
years later, when the girl began to take on the form of a woman,
she looked at all her peers, and wondered why they had such difficulties
doing the things that all young people were required to do.
"Isn't
that strange? They look like me, but they have trouble doing the
same things I can do. It doesn't come easily for them. I wonder
why."
"Because,"
the Being said, "they don't hear their imaginary playmates
anymore."
She
laughed, disbelieving.
The
Being continued, "Besides, everyone is not like you. You're
all unique, and so you will do different things well."
She
was silent for a moment. "But, I do too many things well. They
hate me for it. They're intimidated by me. But, I'm afraid of feeling
superior, too. I don't like those people that think they're better
than everyone else, either."
"That's
because you do things because you like to do them, not because they
will make you look good if you do them. Doing what you love is what
makes your life easy. That, and listening to me." The Being
leaned closer to her. "Never feel guilty for all the blessings
in your life. Blessing are available to all if they truly desire
them."
"You
mean, not just me, but every one can have what they want?"
"Of
course. It's part of being human."
Suddenly
the girl's attention was caught by a handsome boy walking into the
room. Their eyes met, and a flash from the girl's eyes to her heart
struck her. The boy blinked once, then walked away to his desk.
"That's
him. That's my Prince Charming," she said, nudging the Being
in the ribs. "I recognize him."
"So
it is."
The
girl stood to introduce herself.
"Wait,
wait," the Being admonished gently. "It's not time for
that yet. There are other things to do."
She
sat back reluctantly, not convinced, but since she had trusted the
Being this far, she'd wait.
The
girl watched the boy, and noticed that while she was turning into
a woman, the boy, though he was beginning to look like a man, was
still a boy.
"Maybe
I was wrong. Maybe this isn't Prince Charming," she muttered,
disappointed at the lack of progress.
The
Being spoke. "You know he is. But he isn't yet. Go do something
else. When he's ready to meet you, so will you meet."
The
girl shrugged, a little contemptuous of the boy who hadn't yet grown
up yet. She grew impatient waiting. Boys were so fascinating! She
met another boy, all dark angles, brilliant and shadowed at the
same time.
The
Being said, "Yes, he is one you will fall in love with..."
And
with that, the girl ran to the boy, promptly fell in love, and the
Being wasn't heard from for years. She was so happy, gazing into
Darkly Handsome's eyes, walking hand in hand with him, traveling
everywhere together, that she didn't notice that the Being had been
gone for months.
"Being,"
she called one night, one of the few nights when she wasn't dreaming
of Darkly. "I was wrong. This boy, he's my Prince.
How could I have ever thought the other boy could be?"
She
listened for a reply, but there was none. She shrugged. Now that
she was grown, now that she had her Prince Charming, why would she
need the Being anyway?
One
day, as she walked into class hand in hand with Darkly, she saw
that the boy was carrying the books of another girl. She stood still
for a moment, staring at the couple, an unbidden protest coming
to her thoughts, "But, that's not right! He's my
Prince, not hers!"
Very
faintly, in the back of her mind, she heard, "Oh, really? What
about Darkly Handsome?"
Was
that the Being in her ear? Guiltily she turned back to Darkly. That
Being. Why did it pester her now that she was perfectly happy?
"Why
are you sticking your tongue out?" Darkly asked.
The
girl shook her head. "Was I?"
Darkly
pointed to the boy and the other girl in front of them. "Don't
they make a nice couple? Almost as perfect as us."
"No
one is as perfect as us," she replied.
And
so life continued for the girl and the boy---another year passed,
and in that year the boy started behaving more like a man. The girl
took notice, but every time she did, she firmly squashed it with
a thought of Darkly.
That
last year of school, she and the boy had many classes together,
so the girl had plenty of time to observe the boy. She saw that
he was good at things like she used to be, when she had been still
listening to the Being. And she saw that the boy was happy, and
enthusiastic, and believed that nothing bad could ever happen to
him. She had to admit to herself that Darkly wasn't like the boy
at all---he was dark for a reason. And she saw that the boy was
more like she used to be, before she became involved with Darkly.
What
had happened to her? How had she gotten here? This wasn't where
she wanted to be. More and more, her thoughts focused on the boy,
and how wonderful he was, and how Darkly didn't compare.
Then
she became angry. How could she think such thoughts? She had a perfect
relationship with Darkly. How could she be so disloyal? This was
all the Being's fault! She had known who the boy was, but the Being
told her to love someone else! She should never have listened to
it. The Being had brought her to this!
"So,
leave Darkly Handsome," the Being stated.
The
girl looked around wildly. "Is that who I think it is? Leave
me alone! You got me into this! You set me up."
"It
only looks that way. I told you you could always trust me,"
it replied, calm as always.
"Then
where have you been?" she asked accusingly, anger rising from
her stomach to her chest.
"Here,
I'm always here." It tapped her chest.
"No,
you weren't! You left me."
"I
was still here."
"I'm
not leaving Darkly." She crossed her arms tightly.
"It's
time to move on," the Being said gently.
The
girl shook her head. Her face curled around unexpected tears. "I
can't move on. I don't know how anymore."
"So
trust me, and we'll do it together."
She
stared at it, then flopped on the bed, dejected. Her stomach clenched
at the thought of leaving Darkly. If only she had someone to help
her!
She
flipped onto her stomach suddenly. "It's the boy, isn't it?
He knows how to move. I can move with him." Relief washed away
her anxiety.
The
Being shook its head. "He's ready, but you're not, are you?"
"But,
with him by my side I can do anything!" she protested, warming
to the idea.
"You're
not ready for that. Move on. You have to go without him."
She
frowned, growing impatient. "Then why is he here? Now's the
perfect time. After this year, I'll never see him again. I'll miss
my chance. I have to move now."
"Trust
me. You don't need him. You don't need Darkly. It's time to travel
alone."
But
the girl wouldn't listen. She couldn't leave Darkly on her own.
She needed help. She went to visit the boy.
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